Three days after Eid and I am sitting on my balcony where I can vividly see the sun setting and the moon taking it’s post in the calm skies. I see a commercial airline flying through the clouds at lightning speed; heading towards Pearson Airport; and it strikes me that the blessed Month of Ramadhan flew by in pretty much the same way.
Not too long ago we were preparing for, and subconsciously worrying about the long fasts and the hot days within which we would have to go without food and water for over 15 hours!
A part of me felt at that time, as guilty as it sounds, that it would be a relief to successfully complete the month and the fasts. But now, on the other side of those 30 days, my heart feels nothing but sorrow and grief.
The fasts were long, yes, and the days were tiring. There were moments one could only thank God that a feast awaited at the time of Iftaar, but Alhamdulillah there was focus and strength during the month that was a sign of His Power and Blessings in itself.
Through each fast the soul became healthier and stronger. It was only on Eid day, the day when we were all permitted and encouraged to feast, that I felt the backing of strength and power had been removed. Despite having the ability to eat energetic foods and drink cold drinks, I felt more drained than I had in the 30 days collectively.
For me; the month of Ramadhan reminded me of ‘Sha’a’irillah’ – a Sign of Allah (swt). Most definitely, He gave something to each and every individual who obeyed His Command; a something so special and powerful, that the essence of it is only now noticed; with the month having passed.
Life feels slightly aimless; there is not mosque every night, nor the recitation of Du’a-e-Iftitah, but then I ask myself if in solace, I learnt to grow and aspire in this month. If I did, then the sighting of the moon only means I have been blessed with yet another opportunity of witnessing a new month; another day, another hour, to continue growing; the only difference being that I can snack on sweet baklava or a healthy energy bar whilst I grow.